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JUST GO ON


This is a little appreciation post for Louis Tomlinson for making me believe in myself and to 'Just Go On' even when life gets messed up. I'm writing this as my soul's salvation. If I write what I feel, it's to come to terms with my troubled mind and the long lost soul. If these texts help someone, well and good, but even if no one reads them, I'm totally fine with it. Because I know that these 'random' texts serve some purpose and hence are full of life.


I recently came to the realization that I've never really felt alive. Never felt alive when I was 'aving the time of my life with my family and 'friends'. But the pain, the pain somehow always felt real. I learned to numb my feelings to all the good things around me, fearing that one day they will be gone that I forgot to Live. Forgot to enjoy the little moments which will never come back again. And the painful thing is I feel that these emotions and this anonymous fear will always stay with me and not allow me to Live Life, even if I pursue my so-called passion for traveling. 


And it kills me how I've become so separate from myself. How I've lost myself in the process of finding myself. 


"What's left but renunciation as our way and contemplation as our destiny?" Fernando Pessoa


Going on with my obscure life, I heard Louis in an interview with The Glamour UK saying the same words. And the tragic part is I didn't even realize that those feelings prevailed inside of me. He said and I quote, "There are moments when you build things up in your head and the longer you live with that thought, the longer you feel it'll stay there. It ends up being bigger than the reality or the situation."

Louis Tomlinson
Life gets hard and it gets messed up
When you give so much, but it's not enough
When the high's too high, and the low's too low
When you love someone and they let you go
Don't you let it kill you
Even when it hurts like hell
Oh, whatever tears you apart
Don't let it break your heart
Time takes time to heal it
You can't do it by yourself
Oh, whatever tears you apart
Don't let it break your heart
I want to experience the moments, both good and bad. I don't know how or when but I guess that's what we all are looking for, right? I want to go on. Day by Day. I wanna become the best version of me. Even when I'm on my own, I wanna make Me proud. This is what sets me apart. This is my story and mine alone. I wouldn't want to not experience these hardships as they would help me become a better version of myself. Or maybe I'm just curious to see what 'better' feels like...



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