Proudly Weird

HAPPINESS IS OVERRATED Me: Being happy for a few days for no reason. Depression: Hey there! I’ve missed you. Now time's up. I often wonder why and when did this happen to me? Since when the only friend I’ve had was my own mind? Since when did I learn to guard my heart and for what reason? So, in order to find the answer, I deleted all my social media accounts for a short period of time. During quarantine. I didn’t have any contact with the outside world, except my family. This way I thought I could find my ‘happiness’ once again but that wouldn’t be because of a chat I had with someone who made me laugh or I heard some good news or I helped another human being. I was desperate to find my own Everlasting Happiness. But one thing remained. My music. I couldn’t abandon it. And I was listening to NF, the only rapper I listen and take advice from haha. Sooo, while listening to one of his amazing songs, I came to question my own quest. Why do I need to f...

THE WAR: BRAIN vs HEART “Some women choose to follow men, and some women choose to follow their dreams. If you're wondering which way to go, remember that your career will never wake up and tell you that it doesn't love you anymore.” I want to suck all the marrow out of life. I want to live life deliberately. Since childhood, being the black sheep of the family, I had some ‘strange’ obsessions like rock and jazz, poetry, art, psychedelic works and theater. They helped me evade reality.   I did not allow myself to be absorbed by the conformity of those around me. I kept being true to my beliefs. Believing that one day, I will achieve greatness. One day, I will turn my dreams into reality. And for all that to happen, I will not let my great spirit be crushed by the mediocre minds which are incapable of understanding the woman who refuses to bow blindly to conv entional prejudices and chooses instead to express her opinions courageously and honestly. I had that burni...